okay?

Assalammualaikum :) so who says im okay after what just happened? no im not.. i can't sleep and my head hurts. i said ok cause im not gonna story the whole thing right? but im thankful for all the things that happened cause more great things coming in in sha Allah :) pray hard i will get better and upgrade myself Amiin :)

its done

so we've decided to end our relationship forever by deleting each other phone numbers. thats good cause i don't want him to be just friend with him. i was hoping for a commitment but he just wanna play around. his mind is still young and i don't want to be just friends but he still want to be clingy ugh. i let out everything from A to Z and his reply was only "k" so i guess he understands that i don't want him to bother me anymore. just a simple hi can leads to bye. i knew that when he was saying something like "i fall for you for the 2nd time" i feel we not gonna last. he told me he have nothing to focus on. i told him there is but he just disagree everytime. i just pray for his future will be brighter and stop flirting with other girls while in a relationship. its not good. he is a good friend tbh but his weakness can be improved in sha Allah Amiin 😌 may Allah bless you my friend. Assalammualaikum ☺

ego damn high

so hey its almost 2am now and im blogging lol so i had a very difficult time managing my moods today ughhh so yeah cranky happy cray cray... eventhough i ate alot but my mood wasn't that good. its hard being me hahahah! but anw i hope your ego maintain okay? you think i don't know you keep on checking your whatsapp to see if im awake or not? or maybe he just have friends to talk to..i don't knowwww ugh why do i like him so much ya Allah 😢😩😰😭😭 i just can't erase him off my mind. will this stay on like this forever? i do not know how to deal with this..whenever he talk to me i can't avoid him cause it actually make me feel better ಠ_ಠ are you my jodoh or what oh my (个_个)ya Allah pls help me what should i do 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

heolll

hey! sooo you talk to me when you feel like it? i mean its good but i like it when we talk more you know? more as in not one or two words.. a sentence or say something funny? i wish you knew what i feel about you. i started to like you again. i hope you could like tell me how you feel about me not saying "i don't know" every single time. every if my friends know that i really like you but you just don't know. you used to like me and love me so much and i don't know what happened. can i be the reason you smiled again? 😔

hey there

Assalammualaikum :) apparently i've been crying my eyes out about everything and i guess i feel abit better.. my mood swing is a killer ugh 😢 i don't know if this is my pms or just my body system eff up 😅 well anw i've been doing nothing which is not a good sign obviously lol  i don't know what am i doing with my life honestly 😕 wish i could do something productive but each day i just laze ard.. seeing my friends working & schooling kills me inside..i wish i could do at least one of it. sighhhh

its killing me..

well its killing me eventhough i've said that im done over this. you don't care about me. i just want to be happy like how i used to be a year ago. why do guys like this exist and approach me. 😭😢 you are like dying to get me at first and now you don't even think about me. worst is you flirt with other girls while im with you 😢 i am super upset. when i told you i really in love with you, you thought i was joking.. only Allah knows im not. hais

hmm

hey its been long since i blog? well i've not been busy but im lazy so here i am 😁 so how am i doing? been great i guess but at times i feel down cause of mood swings i guess 👀 im not very good when it comes to sad news or something negative.. it can lead to depression 😅 but so far im doing fine since my friends are here for me love you all 😘😘 anyway, To "awak" im avoiding you for the best cause whenever you talk to me i feel like i've fallen for you again but its all one sided so what for? i feel like a fool. if you care you will double text me or call me.. so i am not important to you so yeah better off like this ok? thank you for the good memories ☺ to end this i would like to apologise to all my friends for misunderstood in any ways Assalammualaikum w.b.t 😌

While reading my old posts.. It was stupid of me to be sad and pathetic omai.. Not that im saying im happy and all now but somehow i don't deserve to be sad for a guy like you..so long chubby ~ 

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Seeing other people's happiness is killing me because I'm feeling like shit. where do i go wrong? regret? oh yes :( what have i done. I'm on my own now. its hard for me. I'm just a bother to everyone. I'm just annoying to everyone. people hated me. I'm weak and useless. i don't know why negative thoughts is in my mind now. I guess there's no other ways to feel better.

Don't judge me.

Take a moment to read. I know i have my own mistakes but im a person i am like others too. I hate it when people treating me in a way that i can't accept. Do you ever think treating me this way will help me to change? It won't. When i cried, they called me a crybaby. Really?! Yes i am cause i need to let go of this emotions sometimes. I am not joking when i say that i need to cry. I wish people would understand me. That is why i cried when the night comes or when there's no one. Its silly but its better to let me be alone. No i don't cry over the breakup thingy. I love you all my friends and families no matter how much you guys have hated me behind my back. I am adapting to my new life. Thank you.