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Seeing other people's happiness is killing me because I'm feeling like shit. where do i go wrong? regret? oh yes :( what have i done. I'm on my own now. its hard for me. I'm just a bother to everyone. I'm just annoying to everyone. people hated me. I'm weak and useless. i don't know why negative thoughts is in my mind now. I guess there's no other ways to feel better.

Don't judge me.

Take a moment to read. I know i have my own mistakes but im a person i am like others too. I hate it when people treating me in a way that i can't accept. Do you ever think treating me this way will help me to change? It won't. When i cried, they called me a crybaby. Really?! Yes i am cause i need to let go of this emotions sometimes. I am not joking when i say that i need to cry. I wish people would understand me. That is why i cried when the night comes or when there's no one. Its silly but its better to let me be alone. No i don't cry over the breakup thingy. I love you all my friends and families no matter how much you guys have hated me behind my back. I am adapting to my new life. Thank you. 

hi :) firstly im not feeling really well due to flu and sore throat :( and i only sleep for 4 hours or less. that is the reason why im sick and not getting better :( the other reason is that i over-stressed. i don't get it why am i always be the pathetic one and powerless one in my family example when bedtime, i always get the corner and not enough space. i can barely feel the wind and will tend to be awake at random hours cause its stuffy :/ i can't even complain about it cause im powerless. is this what it feels like to be a loser? idk why my other siblings complain its so stuffy :/ the next thing is that about health.. i've been suffering backbone problems since im 11 years old and if i have back pains i won't complain cause i know it will go away sooner or later. i can't do sit and reach and can't carry heavy loads too. people make fun of me because im out of shape (body tilting) im srry i can't be perfect :( i even have big belly  and pimple face.. but at least i dare to face people and please stop judging me :'( i can't repair everything at once.. shit i even teared now.. its good that im strong. strong enough to continue to walk on rather than falling apart. remember mind your words. i will work hard to be pretty even though its impossible to. i've been suffering from this since im 13. hwaiting haz you can do this :) byebye :)

kanashimi

im feeling down at the moment :/ how i wish someone just be nice for me :( please... im begging you :( im tired of being sad and lonely :(

I miss this girl!!!! im like in love with her LOL! meet up soon Qira <3 she so cute >.<

Hello hello ^^ tomorrow will be the first day we Muslims start to fast :) Happy Fasting People :D anyways i shouldn't be here blogging cause i have journal to settle but oh well i'm bored and waiting for Bf to come home T-T im stuck at Leadership for my journal and i think i should start on my holidays :/ i should have done it earlier so i can watch movie! hais! and i just bought phone cover and jumper suit today :/ im wasting my money again~ and next pay i have to save to buy Sims 3 T-T wahhh asdfghjklzxcvbnm!! k, i have to go....maybe continue typing :'( and have to sleep early today cause tmrw need to wake up at 5 :(!! Sayounara!

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my heart its beating really fast..i wonder why and i have no appetite these days :( why am i feeling this way? i guess im gonna lose weight~

I went to Kalysta's house today ^_^ i miss her so much~she look really beautiful now.and she cut her hair....she looks much more younger than me :O and looks like she gain weight :/ anyways since she join Kungfu class,she can protect me hahaha! hope so...she gave me some clothes too,a hoodie and 2 other clothes..aww she so kind i heart her.and we also camwhore lol and look back at our old photos and she laughing at my short hair -.- she said i look better with long hair :) and yes i was shock to see my short hair o.o gonna have long hairs then~not gonna cut cause i've rebonded my hair and once i cut my hair $60 gone just like that :O and i've wasted 3 hours of my life in a salon T-T that if i cut my hair..so I WANT TO REMIND MYSELF NOT TO CUT MY HAIR for 2 years WOW! 2 years.... challenge accepted! hehe ok i have to go..i will blog again tmrw..maybe not..NEXT THREE WEEKS :D depends on my mood~ i love you bf :) i bet no one know who my bf is ;D cheers!

hi! its been long since i post something~hmm ^ Kevin woo cuts his hair!! no-make up Kevin woo~hehe sorry Eli i abandoned you ^^ anw~my sister birthday is coming soon~looking forward to it~it will be held at Aloha Loyang Bungalow..gonna be a blast!! hmm but i have not yet bought her presents T-T i hug her then :)

ok gtg byeeeeee!

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hiii.Byee~oh man tmrw school so lazyy~hmm im tired of waterfalls and hope there will be no waterfall tmrw :) then i will be the happiest girl in the world ^^ oh damn i just remembered that i have not yet iron my uniforms -_____- my skirt still wet sigh~oh nights people!