sup!

helloooo! so today imma talk about me. so hi im Nurhazrina :) turning 23 in 2 months time and single （〜^∇^)〜 so yeah. so far i've been rejected by 3 guys but not gonna mention them but just give them boy A,B and C. so first!!!  boy A is someone whom i find him really cute and he's my neighbour classmate. got his no. from his friend and end up he lied to me saying he had a gf but he just rejected me and i end up become text buddy with his friend 😂 ok now boy B.. he is more to charming then cute and not my race.. i got his no. but didnt text him due to no confidence..i gave him cookies via his friend but i still have no courage to say anything to him and end up feel like rejected lol lastly boy C 😣 i must say he approach me first and ask for my no. we text and he tried asking me out a few times but i don't want to and he slowly stop texting me.. so im curious 😕 i text him as per normal and his reply is so slow and found out he already have a gf and he apologised to me.. i was so pissed and cried the whole night cause i like him.. but that was the past so yeah i must keep my head high and move on :) Assalamualaikum bye bye ☺☺☺☺

what's diggin'?

Assalamualaikum :) didn't write for few days cause no topic to start with hmm lets see what i can talk about.. oh yeah! been having ulcer imside my mouth near my lips ಠ_ಠ its so painful and whenever i woke up in the morning i feel like my lips is 2 times bigger 😢 i hope it recovers soon!! oh well sickness all cimes frim Allah and whatbwe can do is accept it  :) anyways i hope i get a job soon and in sha Allah next year i want to rent a house :) gonna work hard!! Goodnight everybody 😋

its almost 4am now

Assalammualaikum :) look who's awake till 4 now lol me!  i can't sleep with this kind of blocked nose.. i feel like crying cause im very sleepy and i can't breathe whenever i lay down oh my 😢 idk what else can i do to sleep sighpie.. soooo put that aside and im tweeting again lol yay? 😅 just private my twitter account as well as my instagram cause no stalker allowed unless they follow me on both apps heee ✌ maybe i'll unprivate my instagram cause im promoting my drawings which is soon! probably gonna do some celebs or maybe.. just maybe..my friends 😄 okay gtg now good mornight 😙

okay?

Assalammualaikum :) so who says im okay after what just happened? no im not.. i can't sleep and my head hurts. i said ok cause im not gonna story the whole thing right? but im thankful for all the things that happened cause more great things coming in in sha Allah :) pray hard i will get better and upgrade myself Amiin :)

its done

so we've decided to end our relationship forever by deleting each other phone numbers. thats good cause i don't want him to be just friend with him. i was hoping for a commitment but he just wanna play around. his mind is still young and i don't want to be just friends but he still want to be clingy ugh. i let out everything from A to Z and his reply was only "k" so i guess he understands that i don't want him to bother me anymore. just a simple hi can leads to bye. i knew that when he was saying something like "i fall for you for the 2nd time" i feel we not gonna last. he told me he have nothing to focus on. i told him there is but he just disagree everytime. i just pray for his future will be brighter and stop flirting with other girls while in a relationship. its not good. he is a good friend tbh but his weakness can be improved in sha Allah Amiin 😌 may Allah bless you my friend. Assalammualaikum ☺

ego damn high

so hey its almost 2am now and im blogging lol so i had a very difficult time managing my moods today ughhh so yeah cranky happy cray cray... eventhough i ate alot but my mood wasn't that good. its hard being me hahahah! but anw i hope your ego maintain okay? you think i don't know you keep on checking your whatsapp to see if im awake or not? or maybe he just have friends to talk to..i don't knowwww ugh why do i like him so much ya Allah 😢😩😰😭😭 i just can't erase him off my mind. will this stay on like this forever? i do not know how to deal with this..whenever he talk to me i can't avoid him cause it actually make me feel better ಠ_ಠ are you my jodoh or what oh my (个_个)ya Allah pls help me what should i do 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

heolll

hey! sooo you talk to me when you feel like it? i mean its good but i like it when we talk more you know? more as in not one or two words.. a sentence or say something funny? i wish you knew what i feel about you. i started to like you again. i hope you could like tell me how you feel about me not saying "i don't know" every single time. every if my friends know that i really like you but you just don't know. you used to like me and love me so much and i don't know what happened. can i be the reason you smiled again? 😔

hey there

Assalammualaikum :) apparently i've been crying my eyes out about everything and i guess i feel abit better.. my mood swing is a killer ugh 😢 i don't know if this is my pms or just my body system eff up 😅 well anw i've been doing nothing which is not a good sign obviously lol  i don't know what am i doing with my life honestly 😕 wish i could do something productive but each day i just laze ard.. seeing my friends working & schooling kills me inside..i wish i could do at least one of it. sighhhh

its killing me..

well its killing me eventhough i've said that im done over this. you don't care about me. i just want to be happy like how i used to be a year ago. why do guys like this exist and approach me. 😭😢 you are like dying to get me at first and now you don't even think about me. worst is you flirt with other girls while im with you 😢 i am super upset. when i told you i really in love with you, you thought i was joking.. only Allah knows im not. hais

hmm

hey its been long since i blog? well i've not been busy but im lazy so here i am 😁 so how am i doing? been great i guess but at times i feel down cause of mood swings i guess 👀 im not very good when it comes to sad news or something negative.. it can lead to depression 😅 but so far im doing fine since my friends are here for me love you all 😘😘 anyway, To "awak" im avoiding you for the best cause whenever you talk to me i feel like i've fallen for you again but its all one sided so what for? i feel like a fool. if you care you will double text me or call me.. so i am not important to you so yeah better off like this ok? thank you for the good memories ☺ to end this i would like to apologise to all my friends for misunderstood in any ways Assalammualaikum w.b.t 😌

While reading my old posts.. It was stupid of me to be sad and pathetic omai.. Not that im saying im happy and all now but somehow i don't deserve to be sad for a guy like you..so long chubby ~ 

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Seeing other people's happiness is killing me because I'm feeling like shit. where do i go wrong? regret? oh yes :( what have i done. I'm on my own now. its hard for me. I'm just a bother to everyone. I'm just annoying to everyone. people hated me. I'm weak and useless. i don't know why negative thoughts is in my mind now. I guess there's no other ways to feel better.

Don't judge me.

Take a moment to read. I know i have my own mistakes but im a person i am like others too. I hate it when people treating me in a way that i can't accept. Do you ever think treating me this way will help me to change? It won't. When i cried, they called me a crybaby. Really?! Yes i am cause i need to let go of this emotions sometimes. I am not joking when i say that i need to cry. I wish people would understand me. That is why i cried when the night comes or when there's no one. Its silly but its better to let me be alone. No i don't cry over the breakup thingy. I love you all my friends and families no matter how much you guys have hated me behind my back. I am adapting to my new life. Thank you. 

hi :) firstly im not feeling really well due to flu and sore throat :( and i only sleep for 4 hours or less. that is the reason why im sick and not getting better :( the other reason is that i over-stressed. i don't get it why am i always be the pathetic one and powerless one in my family example when bedtime, i always get the corner and not enough space. i can barely feel the wind and will tend to be awake at random hours cause its stuffy :/ i can't even complain about it cause im powerless. is this what it feels like to be a loser? idk why my other siblings complain its so stuffy :/ the next thing is that about health.. i've been suffering backbone problems since im 11 years old and if i have back pains i won't complain cause i know it will go away sooner or later. i can't do sit and reach and can't carry heavy loads too. people make fun of me because im out of shape (body tilting) im srry i can't be perfect :( i even have big belly  and pimple face.. but at least i dare to face people and please stop judging me :'( i can't repair everything at once.. shit i even teared now.. its good that im strong. strong enough to continue to walk on rather than falling apart. remember mind your words. i will work hard to be pretty even though its impossible to. i've been suffering from this since im 13. hwaiting haz you can do this :) byebye :)

kanashimi

im feeling down at the moment :/ how i wish someone just be nice for me :( please... im begging you :( im tired of being sad and lonely :(

I miss this girl!!!! im like in love with her LOL! meet up soon Qira <3 she so cute >.<

Hello hello ^^ tomorrow will be the first day we Muslims start to fast :) Happy Fasting People :D anyways i shouldn't be here blogging cause i have journal to settle but oh well i'm bored and waiting for Bf to come home T-T im stuck at Leadership for my journal and i think i should start on my holidays :/ i should have done it earlier so i can watch movie! hais! and i just bought phone cover and jumper suit today :/ im wasting my money again~ and next pay i have to save to buy Sims 3 T-T wahhh asdfghjklzxcvbnm!! k, i have to go....maybe continue typing :'( and have to sleep early today cause tmrw need to wake up at 5 :(!! Sayounara!

hmm

my heart its beating really fast..i wonder why and i have no appetite these days :( why am i feeling this way? i guess im gonna lose weight~

I went to Kalysta's house today ^_^ i miss her so much~she look really beautiful now.and she cut her hair....she looks much more younger than me :O and looks like she gain weight :/ anyways since she join Kungfu class,she can protect me hahaha! hope so...she gave me some clothes too,a hoodie and 2 other clothes..aww she so kind i heart her.and we also camwhore lol and look back at our old photos and she laughing at my short hair -.- she said i look better with long hair :) and yes i was shock to see my short hair o.o gonna have long hairs then~not gonna cut cause i've rebonded my hair and once i cut my hair $60 gone just like that :O and i've wasted 3 hours of my life in a salon T-T that if i cut my hair..so I WANT TO REMIND MYSELF NOT TO CUT MY HAIR for 2 years WOW! 2 years.... challenge accepted! hehe ok i have to go..i will blog again tmrw..maybe not..NEXT THREE WEEKS :D depends on my mood~ i love you bf :) i bet no one know who my bf is ;D cheers!

hi! its been long since i post something~hmm ^ Kevin woo cuts his hair!! no-make up Kevin woo~hehe sorry Eli i abandoned you ^^ anw~my sister birthday is coming soon~looking forward to it~it will be held at Aloha Loyang Bungalow..gonna be a blast!! hmm but i have not yet bought her presents T-T i hug her then :)

ok gtg byeeeeee!