hi :) firstly im not feeling really well due to flu and sore throat :( and i only sleep for 4 hours or less. that is the reason why im sick and not getting better :( the other reason is that i over-stressed. i don't get it why am i always be the pathetic one and powerless one in my family example when bedtime, i always get the corner and not enough space. i can barely feel the wind and will tend to be awake at random hours cause its stuffy :/ i can't even complain about it cause im powerless. is this what it feels like to be a loser? idk why my other siblings complain its so stuffy :/ the next thing is that about health.. i've been suffering backbone problems since im 11 years old and if i have back pains i won't complain cause i know it will go away sooner or later. i can't do sit and reach and can't carry heavy loads too. people make fun of me because im out of shape (body tilting) im srry i can't be perfect :( i even have big belly  and pimple face.. but at least i dare to face people and please stop judging me :'( i can't repair everything at once.. shit i even teared now.. its good that im strong. strong enough to continue to walk on rather than falling apart. remember mind your words. i will work hard to be pretty even though its impossible to. i've been suffering from this since im 13. hwaiting haz you can do this :) byebye :)